curhat !!!!

hiii... its been a long time, since i wrote my final papers in LIA. you know time passed so fast and now i become a college students in one of the private university, although that was not my dream university but what else can i do ? just regret or accept those things wholeheartedly. yeah you know i choosed the second one due to it is not merely about struggling what my previous dreams was and instead of blaming my self i decided to continue my dreams *sokbijak being an international relations students is not what i was imagine before, you know diplomat, move one country to another, learn another language and etc. it is sounds good rite ? but before i can do that things i have to deal with and knowing philospher from aristotle to the newest one, learn mostly about history and war. a little bit boring but okay that was my beautiful decision. when i wrote this posting i realize that tomorrow i will have a mid term exam with a difficult subject, but i dont have any idea anymore to learn so i wrote this posting. it is kinda curhat because of in 9 may i have to passed such kind of English test i mean a real english test to fulfill university requirement, i feel like a little bit galau, dont know what to do... worrying many things and etc. this post i dedicated to reduce my anxiety feeling during the d day. why because encouraging someone is better rather than encourage ourselves. yeah i have to got 6 for all aspect in that test,i feel worry, sad, happy, nervous combining together then creating a complicated fellings. a huge expectation from my parents honestly becomes the pressure for me, but despite the fact that they were working hard for me so i will try my best. this post maybe too much for those who read this, but it was just my feelings towards my premier important test. i hope that i can get my target and continue my dreams. cause if i am not take this test i will always be in my comfort zone and can not developed my self well, so that, i hope for the best for the test.