Begining !!!

haiii guysss... after my previous galau post, i already received the result and..... jeng jeng jeng jeng... yeshh i got 6 for overall aspects, buut for writing part i still got 5.5 i don`t know why but for me writingtest in IELTS still become the most difficult test ever huffhh... then i should realize to exercise more in those skills. okay i will tell you a rundown when i joined that test, i came to ION`s as the official venue at 07.45, nobody`s come but the security told me to wait in front of the receptionist. after waiting for about 15 minutes, the mbak mbak receptionist came and told me to sign for re- registration. and after that, we had several steps before entering the test room. the first, we were placed in one class to do photo section *buat nanti sertifikat IELTS, finger print and data verifications. we have done that reqirenment about a half hours. after that registration, we were queue based on alphabetical order to enter the test room.... yesh i got a places in front of the examiner... yesh a native that for me a lil bit jutek wkwkwkw.. almost 3 our i had to strugling with readin,writing and listening. after that i got speaking schedule in 14.30 and i was waiting almost 2 hours and it was sucks. andd my turn in spekaing... i speka a lot but a lil bit nervous so i think that at that time i am not doing ma best. anddddd finalleh, the result ready 14 days after the test and you can check it on line! those test was being my first ever the real english test and i got a little bit depressed bout that. why i take this test ? because of my campus has such kind of double degree programs to Australia, to continue my study one years from fourth and fifth semesters. many things should be done as soon as possible, due to limited time and obstacles. then now i hope for the preparations can works well... no obstacle and etc. yesh i hope this can relized soon and wit me for the nest post for this story. ' those person who support me for this program is absolutely ma parents that "they cheered me the loudest, when i soared."

curhat !!!!

hiii... its been a long time, since i wrote my final papers in LIA. you know time passed so fast and now i become a college students in one of the private university, although that was not my dream university but what else can i do ? just regret or accept those things wholeheartedly. yeah you know i choosed the second one due to it is not merely about struggling what my previous dreams was and instead of blaming my self i decided to continue my dreams *sokbijak being an international relations students is not what i was imagine before, you know diplomat, move one country to another, learn another language and etc. it is sounds good rite ? but before i can do that things i have to deal with and knowing philospher from aristotle to the newest one, learn mostly about history and war. a little bit boring but okay that was my beautiful decision. when i wrote this posting i realize that tomorrow i will have a mid term exam with a difficult subject, but i dont have any idea anymore to learn so i wrote this posting. it is kinda curhat because of in 9 may i have to passed such kind of English test i mean a real english test to fulfill university requirement, i feel like a little bit galau, dont know what to do... worrying many things and etc. this post i dedicated to reduce my anxiety feeling during the d day. why because encouraging someone is better rather than encourage ourselves. yeah i have to got 6 for all aspect in that test,i feel worry, sad, happy, nervous combining together then creating a complicated fellings. a huge expectation from my parents honestly becomes the pressure for me, but despite the fact that they were working hard for me so i will try my best. this post maybe too much for those who read this, but it was just my feelings towards my premier important test. i hope that i can get my target and continue my dreams. cause if i am not take this test i will always be in my comfort zone and can not developed my self well, so that, i hope for the best for the test.